In a place of boredom this year, I read all seven Harry Potter books. I fell in love with the alternativeness of it. It’s a world purposely separated from the reality we’re used to, and there’s comfort in the premise that one day, someone will affirm the feeling that we don’t belong to this place we’re disconnected from. That there’s a name and a place for people who feel the way we do, and an explanation for the odd things that have been happening to us.
It sort of explains my affinity for spirituality and the occult. My own real-life version of magic. My Reiki classes have taught me to see life on a grander scale, and thus helped me move forward a little from depression. Tarot gives me strange guidance and food for thought, while still leaving me room to forge my own path.
Let go. Sit tight. Be cautious. Be bold. Live.
I try my best to rationalize so-called superstitions by grounding them in something I can understand in real life. Something “scientific,” if you must. The root of all my beliefs is that everything in the universe is basically vibration. Things are visible or invisible because of the frequency they vibrate at, and things affect things because vibrations spread and touch each other.
Isn’t that simplistic and wonderful?
To believe that thoughts and words are exchanged through vibrating energy that can actually be felt, read, or transferred. To believe in spiritual planes we cannot see for they simply vibrate at a frequency different from what our sight can manage.
It’s wonderful to grasp at something so mysterious and yet strives to explain so much about our relationship with the universe. I acknowledge that I don’t and won’t understand everything in this lifetime. I only have my limited, but significant, experience as a foundation for what I believe.
As part of this learner’s journey, which I’ve been on for roughly two years, I want to document everything I think I know so far about the different topics of spirituality, occult, or New Age. Whatever you want to call it.
Please take responsibility for the energy you bring into this space.
― Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor
Someone I met in the spirituality community likened energy to The Force in Star Wars. No, we can’t move things with it (maybe not yet), but we are connected to it, we can feel it, and we do well by trusting it.
The energy of person, place, or thing goes by different names: aura, energy field, feeling. Reading that energy can be called intuition, empathy, clairsentience. That time you loved someone and you thought of them in the color blue. That friend you love dearly but whose interactions drains you. That split second where, with no rhyme or reason, you just knew something you couldn’t explain.
That’s energy. That’s intuition at work. We read aura partly by training ourselves to be sensitive to those little vibrations and partly by trusting intuition about how things feel.
Energy feels and appears differently for people, just as there are four main types of intuition:
- feeling (clairsentience)
- seeing (clairvoyance)
- hearing (clairaudience), and
- knowing (claircognizance).
Reading energy is as simple as sensitivity to signs with the senses that we know, and training our intuition. Paying attention to a universe that wants to be noticed.
An exercise: If you put your palms a distance from each other and focus on the feeling between them, you’ll feel a kind of push. Then try facing your palms toward any part of your body and moving your palms away until you no longer feel it. That’s where your energy field ends.
What’s the point, besides mystery, wonder, and grasping at straws to give life meaning?
- Well, parts of our body represent aspects of our energy, which speak deeply of our mental and emotional state. You know that frequent headache? You might be out of touch with your life’s path. And that sore throat whispers how much truth you’ve been releasing, or even holding back. The top of the stomach, or below the ribs, points out your connectedness to other people.
- In a way, I believe the world would be a better place if we were all more sensitive to each other’s energy, and to the energy we bring to others. We would understand each other better, and we would know how to treat each other at any given time. Almost always, it’s with kindness and empathy.
I was introduced to energy in my first spirituality class: energy healing, or Reiki.
If you want to get technical, a Japanese man named Mikao Usui posed that there was a “universal life force” that sustained us, and which was necessary to our health and happiness. He developed a practice which empowered us to channel Reiki (“Rei” = God’s Wisdom or Higher Power, “Ki” = life force energy) onto ourselves and other people to restore the energy that’s out of whack.
Still, we must be accountable for our own health and happiness, our energy, our space, our unfortunate contribution to the shared energy of the universe. But welcoming The Force into our lives eases the process of recovery.
Reading and channeling energy didn’t improve my depression, but it pointed me to the things I had to accept or change in order to better it myself.
It isn’t for everyone, for obvious reasons. When I took it up, I had difficulty explaining it to people because it sounded exactly like New Age mumbo-jumbo jargon that turned people away. But people are fascinated when I explain energy in simple terms, as something they can understand, as validation that things affect things and that all that has happened has an explanation, if not a reason.
This isn’t witchcraft. This is us moving at a frequency we don’t know how to measure and donating energy to the universe somehow. I like to think this makes sense. That bettering myself is, after all, the best way to better the universe. That, in the grand scheme of things, if I try hard enough, I am a healer and I am significant.