I’m Apple—yep, like the fruit.
Over twelve years a twelve-year old; lovechild of sea and sky, of words and wishing, of old souls and young minds; all kinds of feelings squeezed into a tiny, tiny body. I use words and heart-and-soul creativity to speak to and through my deepest struggles, and to write a more meaningful life for myself.
The universe shifted against me when I broke my heart and lost my passion. And then it happened again. I met depression over and over, and I couldn’t find the hands or hearts I needed from people just like me. Online spaces became less about our own truths and more about buzzwords and brands, and suddenly the stories I wanted to tell didn’t fit into the “marketplace.”
I write with the hope that there is still a place on the world wide web for people to open up to one another, to comfort and cheer each other on above the curated stories, the branded photos, the false impressions, and the competition.
…that clumsy human being, always loving…”
I am a writer and artist from Manila, day and night, mind and body. I adore stories, but I still believe the world revolves around people and their humanity. I cannot help but care too much about making this world a better place somehow.
I wrestle hard to criticize what the world obsesses with, like happiness, productivity, success. Instead, I believe in doing what makes you better, in life inside of coffee shops, and in singing along to the music that raised you. I believe in keeping people safe, but also in tough love, and in saying what you need to say.
I have bouts of depression I try very hard to fight, but I have a big voice when I love when I’m talking about and I have a really pretty smile when you catch me with my walls down.
I would really, really like it if you stayed.
Getting through bad days is hard. Getting things done on bad days is harder. But it’s possible for me, and it’s possible for you. Beating depression in ten easy steps isn’t as simple as I make it sound, but we can beat it one day at a time, with proper planning, over-preparing, and by balancing hustling for ourselves and being an encourager for others.
If I don’t sound very depressed, even on days I say I’m having an episode, it’s because of consistent therapy, proactivity in recovery, and constant encouragement from my support system. It took a while to get to where I am, and I still have a long way to go. But if you backread my entries, you’ll see just how sad I used to be. That’s why I believe that recovery is possible for anyone, once you draw a roadmap to get there.
* Illustration by Jessica Hagy.
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Moongirl is a productivity and lifestyle blog about living with mental illness. This space seeks to inspire, encourage and motivate readers to happiness, health and success while acknowledging the barriers and obstacles of living with depression and discouragement.
There are many lifestyle blogs there with upbeat tempos and go-getter productivity hacks, but few of these address the barriers of living with mental health conditions.
Moongirl started out as a personal diary of sadness, but has since grown into a chronicle of healing and recovery. The blog has expanded into a TinyLetter newsletter which contains more raw stories of the same type of content, plus upcoming workshops on writing and lifestyle design.
This is a place for people to feel safe but empowered. This space acknowledges the barriers and obstacles of becoming productive and happy–as happy as you can be–while living with mental health conditions. I want this space to be gentle, inspiring, and honest.